The waiting, the wondering, the uncertain timelines

As summer vacation nears it's end, I feel happy. Happy that my mind will soon be consumed with 20 new little 6-7 year olds. Happy that I will have so much work to do at school in the next month, time will fly by. Happy that I will be back with all my work buddies again, laughing and joking and most of all getting the support that I always get from them. There's no staff like my staff...I am sooooo lucky to work with all the people I do. And so many of my co-workers have young children, I'm so glad I'm soon going to be in that club!

But the waiting, wondering and uncertain timelines is killing me. August has been a crazy month for my brain. If only we knew a date, I would know what to focus on, what to prepare for. You see, I'm gold (a planner, organizer, anal-about-everything type). This does not help me what-so-ever. Will we travel before Christmas? After Christmas? I promised Marvin he'd be a daddy before he turns 40 (January 8), which he will be, because we'll have our referral by then, but how much does he want Kennedy in his arms by then?

Thank you to all those people who have said a kind word, e-mailed me over and over, called on the phone, left comments on the blog, taken me to lunch, listened to me discuss timelines when they didn't understand a word I was saying. You know who you are. I don't want to start naming names, but there are a few people who are helping me maintain my sanity and I will never forget that.

Everyone who has been to China and back say that once Kennedy is in our arms, we will forget the pain of the wait. I can't wait for that feeling. But some days it still feels so far away, even though it's getting so much closer.

Sending this post out especially to my friends Natalie and Shea, who are also so close to getting their babies. We're getting there, we're getting there...